A Question...

Its 2:00 AM in night. Have to submit report in 2 days, & i have not started yet... :)
Its not the perfect time to right a blog post, but still.. i felt this is important.
Today i spent my entire evening with my iit friends. We are 4 people group here & no doubt i am the odd man out ! Rest all three are bit louder, noisy, somewhat typical, childish and also cheap [in all respects :( ] sometimes...(they r all from mumbai....).
Generally i dont like anyone to disturb my comfort zone (especially strangers n new friends...). And unfortunately we have too many things in contrast.. But i have very good relations with the each individual..But things go really horrible when we all 4 are together.. I often feel frustrated and even angry sometimes..Till now i am trying my best to adjust with these friends. And my patience is really being tested these days. i dont claim that i am the right one always and they r on wrong side. Its just that our styles dont match.
Before some time i had felt a need to increase my acceptance towards people. Initially i was in "exclusive" mode towards people rathar than "inclusive". But there is a limit to how much u can compromise to adjust urself with others. I have observed here that though i am physically present but not whole heartedly. Many times i have to force myself against my will just to maintain the group spirit high. I have observed similar feeling (more prominent) of being odd man out in my BE days.
I know i am not the person who looks transparent and open. people tend to share things easily with them. So for these persons its easy to be firm on their values and sometimes assertive too..
THis is definitely one thing that i should improve in near future.
Till the day this is achieved, the question is,
What should be my priority ??
To compromise, for adjusting.. or
To be as i want to be (even if it needs to be alone) ??

to be continued......